My Past Few Weeks in Review

I have had such a busy month of May!

Technically, I should be doing some work for my online 2-week interim course for First Aid

(Yes, I do indeed hate myself already for it! Haha.)

But see, I didn't think to order the book it needs!

I have placed my order however, and it'll be in tomorrow.

So I am going to play catch up haha.

So, as for the past few weeks:

I graduated from Rose State! Ignore my dumb looking hair...it was raining all that day and it was not cooperating at all!

I am technically a summer candidate, but I don't care! Haha

This is my "something new." I had never graduated from an institution of higher education.

Then...

My little sister graduated from high school!

Those are her two best friends, Tim and Dylan.

She was honored as a National Honor Society Member, National Forensic League (with, I believe, an honorary degree!!) and a frequent blood donor. She's the woman!! Haha

It's been a crazy few weeks gone by, and I'm glad it's coming to a close.

I feel worn out!! Haha.

Also, have you guys tried these??

I'm OBSESSED!!! I love them! Haha

And, alas, I am sad, for this is what I did to my phone just last night:

I popped the camera button right off!

I didn't even realize I did it until this morning!

SO MUCH SADNESS!

On a positive note, I did get a mani/pedi.

Well, not a real mani. I just had them shape up and paint my nails.

I hate to paint my own nails.

Also, I would like to announce that even though this has been probably the toughest semester of my college career, I made A's and B's.
I will take that! Hahaha.

Something I didn't want to do? I hung out with someone even though I really wanted to stay in my comfort zone and blow this person off.

Hoping to blog more now that it's summer,

with all my love, Morgan



What a Long Day!

And it's not over yet!

I am definitely ready to go home, eat some spaghetti and sleep.

Unfortunately, I will have to postpone the sleeping thing.

I need to clean my makeup brushes sooo bad.

I hate to do it, but they really need it! Haha

Plus, I have about another hour of work so I'm not going anywhere for a little while.

SInce I LOVE lists, here is my to-do list:

1. Clean makeup brushes...as stated earlier haha

2. Get makeup organized for the opening of MacBeth tomorrow night.

3. Laundry...Note to self: aren't you sick of wearing all the stuff from your sister's closet?! Wash yo clothes, fool!

4. Study -_-

5. Take some tests -_-

6. Figure out Life Plan

Ok, I'm just kidding on the last one! Haha. I wish I was kidding about all of that list though!!

You know, sometimes I look at my life and just think:

Ok, God, where are we going with this??

I see my friends being able to date and let people in their lives.

(Although, it would probably be easier for me to date if I was ever asked out by some medium other than a Facebook message...not that I'm not appreciative, just commenting!)

I have to wonder what makes things so easy for them, that they can meet people and it's like, Bam! Ok, we like each other now.

The only thing that makes me feel better about it is hoping it's not as easy as it appears.

I don't mean to sound pathetic, because I have to believe that there is someone for me that God has in mind and it's just not the right time for me to meet him, I'm more amazed at how easy it is for people to open up to others when it is so dang hard for me.

But heck, I'm also amazed that some people actually like  Math enough to major in it, so what do I know? Haha.

When I was growing up, my mom and sister didn't understand why it was so hard for me to make friends. Thank goodness my father and youngest sister have a shy streak too or I would've been a total outcast amongst my outgoing relatives haha.

I'd just always think people didn't want me around so I won't bother them.

Even today, I give myself pep talks to make myself seem more outgoing and friendly.

People who drive by me when I'm going to a social event probably think I'm totally nuts!

This post has totally taken a way more serious tone than I originally intended haha.

I am just very tired and a little down today.

It's hard to fake being chipper when all I wanna do is be down for a little while, ya know?

I was at Life Church this past weekend and it was like the pastor, Craig, had read this blog and said:

Hey! I know what you have! It's called a heaviness of the soul!

And I was literally tearing up in the middle of this sermon because it's so true.

He literally said something along the lines of:

Everything is fine, but something is just not right.

And I knew exactly what he was saying.

You should check it out, yo!

Click here to watch the sermon online!!

 

 

I feel like this was a very long and sad post lol.

I'm sorry for my ramblings!!

And I promise for a more upbeat post soon.

with all my love, Morgan

As My Mama Would Say...

I am just full of piss and vinegar today!

I don't know where she gets her little sayings.

She'll do something kinda crafty or impressive and us kids will say:

"Where'd you learn that, Mama?"

And she'll reply, "Oh, I learned it in 'Nam."

My mother was not fighting in "'Nam."

Haha she was barely born!

I don't even think HER dad was stationed in Vietnam!

Or we'll walk outside on a windy day and say:

"Well, it's windier than a sack full of buttholes out here!"

You are so right, Mom, that's exactly what I was thinking hahahaha.

Well, my point is, I am all fired up today!

That is what piss and vinegar means I guess ha ha.

I am very annoyed with school.

People were making fun of me because I got upset when my Hitler and Nazi Germany Professor (Yes, that is the class' actual name haha) asked if we had to choose between certain members of our family, who would we let die? (She was asking this because we were talking about the Jewish ghetto in Krakow and sending people to the camps)

And I said I wouldn't know and it made me really upset to even think about it!

THEN, my supposed "best friend" is terrible about keeping in contact with me.

I swear, I have acquaintances who are better about calling me or messaging me back.

So now, I am just ticked! Lol.

I just want people to let me feel upset about choosing my hypothetical children over my hypothetical mother in the hypotherical Jewish ghetto! It's a very upsetting thing to think about, gosh darn it!

And I just want my best friend to act like he wants to talk to me!

THESE ARE NOT BIG WISHES!!

They are average ones!!!!

GOSH!!!

Ok, I'm done now haha.

I do have a quick beauty tip for you all though.

I just started using Jergens Self Tanning Lotion for body and their stuff for your face.

Well, let me tell you, I really like it!

I was a big fan of the mousse type stuff from Urban Decay but I don't think they make it anymore.

My tip would be to really exfoliate well. It doesn't look dark when you put it on, but I didn't exfoliate well the first night and I had some streaks on my chest the next day.

I can't wait to try out St. Tropez's...My hero, Kandee Johnson, always uses it and gives it rave reviews...only problem is it's pricey!

I got my Jergens Tanner at CVS, but I imagine you can buy it at any drug store or Wally-World or Tarjay!

Hope you are all having a wonderful day!

With all my love, Morgan



Update!

Well, a little while back I made a goal for myself:
1. Do something nice for somebody everyday.
2. Do something I don't want to do as often as possible.
3. Do something new (was it once a month?)

Well, I can tell you right now that I have been keeping up with the middle one!
I have been going to SWITCH, and finishing all my homework assignments and going to class...even when I really really hate my 8 am Mythology class. I mean, that class has so much homework! They do know that 99% of that stuff isn't real right?! Haha

However, I have not been good about doing something nice for others on a daily basis, which is sad because that should be the easiest when you think about it!
As for something new, well, I attribute that to no flippin' free time! I need to quit with the excuses though, I know.

I'm not sure I will tell you all when I do something nice...that feels like I'm trying to get compliments for being decent to other humans!! But when I do something new...now that will be documented! Like, I'm about to graduate from junior college...something new!! Huzzar!!

So for the actual beauty post: I got nothin.'

How pathetic is that? Haha. I have been so focused on finishing school, I'm surprised I've even worn makeup this semester. If you wanna read something about beauty, then you'll just have to check out my article in BBP Magazine! Go subscribe now...why not? It's free! I love free, it's always in my price range!


With all my love, Morgan

Two Million Years Later...

This has been one crazy and great semester for me...it is so hard to do anything else but study and work and study some more! Haha.
I have some really cool things going on right now.
My friends Brandon and Kaitlin (aka Cutest Married Couple Ever) are launching an online magazine.
Click here to see BBP Magazine's Website!
Anyway, they have offered me a chance to be a beauty writer for it! I mean, how exciting is that??
Things have definitely been more positive lately.
I made myself go to SWITCH and it has been so rewarding.
I am kind of co-leading a group of 6th and 8th grade girls and sometimes it just astounds me how much they've gone through.
It is something I pretty much look forward to now!

It has been about, oh, two gazillion years since I wrote about anything beauty related!! Haha.
So, I'll talk about vitamins and the benefits they have for your outside appearance.

Now, I do not have the qualifications to tell you what you should take. Nor do I have the education! Ha! But I can tell you this: Vitamins are not only necessary for fulfilling nutritional needs, but they can greatly improve things like your hair, skin and nails. Now, some people will tell you to take Biotin. It's supposed to make all of that stuff grow and all that jazz. But in my opinion, everything will function better if you take a multivitamin! My mom even says that her Women's Daily multivitamins and Calcium supplements help calm her "Crazy Legs" or Restless Leg Syndrome!
I don't think anything will make your hair or nails grow faster. I do think that by getting the proper nutrition, your body will respond and perform better for you. So talk to your Doc or someone wayyyy more qualified than me, and get yourself a multivitamin! Also, I like to take Omega 3, 6 and 9's...our body needs those Oils but we don't make them! You can eat food high in Omega 3's, but we can't eat salmon everyday! Haha.
Again, I AM NOT A DOCTOR!!! This is simply my opinion. If you have a question about what vitamin you should take, find an actual doctor...they'll hook you up with some knowledge!

I hope everyone has a wonderful day!
With all my love, Morgan

P.S. If you want your hair to grow out nicely (not faster...not possible!) You need to exercise, be easy on the heat styling and coloring/bleaching, take your vitamins, wash your hair every other day, use a clarifying shampoo once a week to remove potentially clogging build-up from products and massage your scalp! I know it sounds weird, but it is really relaxing. I've also heard doing hand stands help but I wouldn't know! Hahaha

My Pursuit of Happyness

Yes, I did spell "happiness" wrong on purpose! Haha.

My dear 5 readers, I must make an announcement.

This is the beginning of my pursuit of happiness.

I truly believe my unhappiness is not normal.

I shouldn't be hung up on something that happened a year ago.

I believe that inner joy can only come from God.

And God has truly blessed me but I still don't know how to allow myself to be happy.

I was thinking about it last night and thought to myself:

"Self, now you are happy like 90% of the time. It is only when you allow yourself to dwell on stupid stuff in the past that you have bad days."

So in my pursuit of happyness, I have even talked to my mom about seeking help from a pro.

This is so embarassing for me to put out there for you all to read, but I am very much ready to be happy. I want to let go of everything and be myself again.

I haven't felt like myself in a long time.

So here is my declaration: I will follow my own advice and tell myself I am happy.

But I also have a plan. You know I love lists!!!

Morgan's Game Plan!!!

1. Do something new every week. I would say everyday, but let's take one step at a time here! Haha

2. Do something nice for someone else everyday. This I think is even more so important than my own happiness. I want it to spread to everyone else.

3. Be the best student, daughter, sister, friend, whatever, I can be. I have seriously neglected my friendships and relationships with people and that isn't tolerable anymore.

4. Do something I don't want to do as often as possible. I tend to avoid social situations, anything new or scary, etc. For instance, I have started to volunteer at SWITCH, which is Youth group at Life Church and I constantly think of excuses not to go. Also, I got a makeup job with a photographer this weekend and even though I want to go, I immediately thought of a reason not to go. And it's only because I don't know what to expect!

5. Start checking things off my Bucket List. I am sitting around, wasting my life, and that has got to change. I need to do something at least once a month. This may increase once I graduate from college.

6. I have somehow got to allow myself to be happy. I deserve to be.

With all my love, Morgan

Some Big News Brought to You By My Family!

Well, I have been so busy this semester. I don't remember if I told you, my dear 5 readers, but I may get to walk at graduation this May, and just take my last two classes this summer and get my diploma in August. Well, even BIGGER stuff has gone down! Not for me, but for my sister, Maddie!

You might not be able to see it very well, but my little sister is the new Miss Choctaw 2012!!!!
I'm so happy for her. She has had a tough senior year so far, and she has risen above all of negativity to receive this title. Also, she is the new recipient of the Freshman Achievement Scholarship (I think that's its' name) at UCO...which is the BIGGEST tuition waiver scholarship they offer! I'm so proud of her. She is so deserving of this scholarship. She worked her tail off in drama, volunteering, and most importantly her academics. What person actually elects to take physics when they're not especially gifted in math anyway??? Hahah!
 It almost makes me want to cry because I know she is going to be so successful and happy and I feel like this title and scholarship are her chance at starting fresh and becoming an adult.
Here's a few more pics...I did her hair and makeup.

Casual Wear, after crowning!

Maddie, Me holding up the Dress haha and Miss Choctaw 2011 Melody High marveling at her choice of foot wear for Formal wear! Haha. The dress was too long, so we decided on the highest heels we have! Hahaha

My other hair/makeup appointment, Kenzie Kulig! She is GORGEOUS!!

My two clients before formal wear!

As you can tell, I had such a great time and am very proud of not only my sister, but the other ladies.

I think pageants are often seen as a shallow event. I'm guilty of this thinking too! Ha!

But it takes a lot of guts to get up there and strut your stuff in front of people being paid to judge you!

With all my love, Morgan