And it's not over yet!
I am definitely ready to go home, eat some spaghetti and sleep.
Unfortunately, I will have to postpone the sleeping thing.
I need to clean my makeup brushes sooo bad.
I hate to do it, but they really need it! Haha
Plus, I have about another hour of work so I'm not going anywhere for a little while.
SInce I LOVE lists, here is my to-do list:
1. Clean makeup brushes...as stated earlier haha
2. Get makeup organized for the opening of MacBeth tomorrow night.
3. Laundry...Note to self: aren't you sick of wearing all the stuff from your sister's closet?! Wash yo clothes, fool!
4. Study -_-
5. Take some tests -_-
6. Figure out Life Plan
Ok, I'm just kidding on the last one! Haha. I wish I was kidding about all of that list though!!
You know, sometimes I look at my life and just think:
Ok, God, where are we going with this??
I see my friends being able to date and let people in their lives.
(Although, it would probably be easier for me to date if I was ever asked out by some medium other than a Facebook message...not that I'm not appreciative, just commenting!)
I have to wonder what makes things so easy for them, that they can meet people and it's like, Bam! Ok, we like each other now.
The only thing that makes me feel better about it is hoping it's not as easy as it appears.
I don't mean to sound pathetic, because I have to believe that there is someone for me that God has in mind and it's just not the right time for me to meet him, I'm more amazed at how easy it is for people to open up to others when it is so dang hard for me.
But heck, I'm also amazed that some people actually like Math enough to major in it, so what do I know? Haha.
When I was growing up, my mom and sister didn't understand why it was so hard for me to make friends. Thank goodness my father and youngest sister have a shy streak too or I would've been a total outcast amongst my outgoing relatives haha.
I'd just always think people didn't want me around so I won't bother them.
Even today, I give myself pep talks to make myself seem more outgoing and friendly.
People who drive by me when I'm going to a social event probably think I'm totally nuts!
This post has totally taken a way more serious tone than I originally intended haha.
I am just very tired and a little down today.
It's hard to fake being chipper when all I wanna do is be down for a little while, ya know?
I was at Life Church this past weekend and it was like the pastor, Craig, had read this blog and said:
Hey! I know what you have! It's called a heaviness of the soul!
And I was literally tearing up in the middle of this sermon because it's so true.
He literally said something along the lines of:
Everything is fine, but something is just not right.
And I knew exactly what he was saying.
You should check it out, yo!
I feel like this was a very long and sad post lol.
I'm sorry for my ramblings!!
And I promise for a more upbeat post soon.
with all my love, Morgan
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